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Name, Shelley Anne Dewar, born 1^stMarch, 1963 at King Edward Memorial Hospital, in Perth, Western Australia. I was a cute little thing like most babies I suppose and today I stand at 5”3 with a slim petite figure, shoulder length blondish hair, olive complexion and not too bad looking if I must say so myself with brown greenish eyes, depending on my mood.

I am a strong willed person with strong values and because of these, I have been known to say inappropriate truths at times which can hurt a person’s feelings and they then think I am a bitch but in fact I’m just trying to help them. One thing that does annoy me though is if ever I get passionate about something and for those that don’t know me, it’s often mistaken for anger and then I’m classed as a crazy lunatic but to be honest, I don’t really care much because my heart is always in the right place. I am very sensitive to a person’s needs and I will help you in any way I can if you are willing to help yourself and if you’re not, my patience runs thin because I’m not into time wasters and lazy people. I have always been a very hard worker in everything I do and that is how I have gotten where I am today.

Ok let’s get on with it shall we?

Ever since I can remember I have had gay tendencies. Going through my teens was a nightmare and even into my twenties and thirties, I still struggled immensely with these thoughts and feelings. I often wondered whether I was normal and if I was the only one who ever thought or felt like this and I dared not to tell anyone. I couldn’t! What would they think of me? The criticism I feared was overwhelming so I had to keep these thoughts to myself which meant I was in a very lonely place and I know there are still many others out there who feel the same way even today, regardless of whether we are in the twenty first century or not. Despite this, I began realising I couldn’t keep living the way I was in fear of being rejected so I took a stand and thought, “It’s my life, stuff you all” and it changed after that. At twenty- one I became involved with a woman and our relationship lasted for fourteen years. God knows how with the many ups and downs we had. After that, I had another three long term relationships which nearly drove me insane and I will not deny, it turned me into being an alcoholic. It was mostly because of the provoking by them that brought out the worst in me; the insecurities, the betrayal, violence and the many other things I encountered along the way. I would like to take you on my journey through these destructive relationships and my life in general and how I managed to get to where I am today but first I want to try and explain to the best of my knowledge about sexual preference before we begin on my journey. I hope you enjoy my story.