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Our first task is to explore the nature of our hurt and openly acknowledge what we perceive to have happened. The natural way children seem to do this is by first thinking through what happened and then telling someone about the experience. For example ‘Mum – I didn’t get selected for the team today, but Jane did.’ Other ways children spontaneously explore their hurts include play-acting what happened, or painting a picture or creating a story about it.

There is no coming to consciousness without pain

Carl Jung

By the time we reach adulthood, very often our immediate reaction may be to repress these natural healing responses and put what happened to the back of our minds. In fact, there could sometimes be a very good reason for doing so (for example we are too busy writing a letter of complaint or trying to find another job), but often our ‘good reason’ is far from positive (for example a determination to smile sweetly through all manner of adversity, or a belief that no one has time to listen to us).

Unfortunately, once a hurt has been relegated to the back shelves of our minds, that’s very often where it stays. Even those of us with immense ‘psychological know-how’ are often tempted to leave troublesome memories well alone, especially when the practical issues relating to the problem have already been solved.

In the past few years there have been heated battles raging in the both the courts and the media about the validity of memories relating to childhood abuse which emerge during therapy. The concern is that some therapists may be digging their unscrupulous way into the subconscious world of suggestible clients and planting false recollections. Theoretically this is of course possible, but I do not think it should worry the very vast majority of us who want to explore and heal from our emotional past. So, in fact, it may be just as important to talk about our perceptions of what happened when we were hurt, and about our imagined explanations, because they may have been just as emotionally damaging as any ‘real truth’. The paralysing fear that we feel if we think we are going to be hit is not very different from the fear we feel before we actually are