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It was week four of a twelve-week group programme for ten very depressed clients. I was a newly qualified therapist in the early days of my career. I had a nice circle of chairs set up and a scented candle burning, and I was even wearing my therapist cardigan. What could go wrong? In short, everything! All of the clients in the group were angry, frustrated and disillusioned with everything, and that included me. I was stuck and they were stuck. The only comfort in the room was the wafting smell of the lavender and ginger candle.

Suddenly one of the participants, Angela, a recently divorced mum of two young children, declared, ‘Therapy is bullsh*t, all we do is sit and complain.’ There was rapturous applause from the group and there it was, my therapist light bulb moment.

I had an intuitive urge to ask everyone in the group to stand up, which I did. In truth I wasn’t quite sure what I was going to do with them but I knew I had to do something. I had to think on my feet, knowing that the ‘Hokey Cokey’ or a group hug wasn’t going to cut it in this instance. Trust me, ten angry, depressed clients are not an easy audience and I momentarily felt like I was in the lion’s den!

Then something quite magical happened. As the group stood up they suddenly quietened and a new mood of curiosity entered the room. Doing what any therapist would do, I commented on the change of atmosphere. A reply soon followed from Angela: ‘Well, at least now we’re doing something to get us out of this mess.’ It was the doing something that opened the door to new possibilities.

More quick thinking was required on my part. I realized the only props I had in the room were a window looking out onto a nice view of some trees and a dark, crumbling wall on the other side of the room. I decided these polar opposite views would be my tools. The window would represent a future that looked more hopeful and the dark wall would represent all the difficulties in the past that helped maintain depression.

I asked the entire group to form a line while I explained to them what the window and the wall represented. Then I asked them to turn towards the side of the room that represented what they would like therapy to focus on. Almost perfectly synchronized, they all turned towards the window. There was silence as they looked out onto the trees and a tangible sense of calm entered the room.

I then asked them where they felt their attention was focussed most of the time in everyday life. Again, perfectly synchronized, without hesitancy, they all turned towards the wall. None of the group said anything as they continued to stare at the wall. After a moment’s silence, I asked a simple question: ‘What do you think might be the problem with spending a lot of time focussed on the wall?’

This time the reply came from John, a twenty-four-year-old who rarely spoke in the group.

John’s career as a professional sportsman had ended suddenly after an accident caused serious injuries. He felt hopeless and was struggling to move forward with his life. He gently said, ‘If I stay stuck looking at this wall, I have my back turned to the future.’

And at that moment, amazingly, everyone independently and unprompted turned back towards the window, some slowly, some reluctantly, and some more deliberately. This was to be our focus in therapy for the remaining weeks.

We agreed together as a group that the dark wall would always be there but rather than ignore or deny it, they would learn from those dark past experiences to help them move forward.

Working with this group changed how I worked as a therapist. Early in my therapist’s career I truly became aware of the detrimental impact of holding on to the past. What I noticed most was that my clients were either trapped going over events from their past or felt they had to follow unsustainable rules they’d created as a means of self-protection during or following unpleasant past events. When they started to let go of what no longer served a purpose, symptoms of depression lifted like a fog and happiness emerged from a place of great darkness. The entire group began to recover as, step by step, they started to let the past be.

It was incredibly humbling and a privilege to be part of this process of healing. Each week the atmosphere in the room lightened, laughter increased and at the final session everyone in the group brought an item that would remind them of the process. I was struck most by one woman, Jean, who brought a blank white page. She held it up and said, ‘I’ve brought this today because I have a chance to write a new, more hopeful story.’

There was a sudden cheer from the group, a few tears and a tangible sense of optimism in the room. A completely different atmosphere from twelve weeks earlier. I should mention that I ditched the cardigan and scented candle.

There’s a good reason that the first chapter of this book focuses on the past. Everyone reading this will have ‘stuff’ from the past that is getting in the way of life today. It could be violence in the family, bullying as a child, poverty, hardship, abuse, rejection, disappointments, failures, or things that didn’t work out. The list is endless, as is the impact! It’s not only the events that create issues though; it is also the rules and beliefs we learn from our past that sometimes keep us stuck. For some this can be like living in a straitjacket, with little psychological flexibility. I’ll talk more about this later.

By the same token, almost every client I work with arrives at therapy feeling trapped in the past. Often, they have no idea how to get free. Many years back, I myself arrived in therapy for the first time, aged twenty-two. I thought I needed some help with worry and told the therapist I was otherwise ‘pretty sorted’. Boy, was I in for a surprise! I started to explore how my past was impacting on me and realized why I was almost paralyzed with fear. Therapy was the most liberating experience of my life. Ironically my therapist was a nun and a truly amazing woman. I worried at the time she might be judgemental or be the wrong fit for me. That fear subsided when she said, ‘You’ve had a pretty sh*t time, and deserve more. Let’s put away the stuff you don’t need. I think it’s time for you to shine.’ I have never forgotten that.

Back to the past: I’m not advocating that you attempt to simply erase from your mind any difficult stuff from your past and pretend it hasn’t happened. That doesn’t help. Indeed, my experience is that it can make things worse. Yet I believe you can begin to come to terms with your past and learn to manage it. You can become victorious rather than victimized. You can flourish rather than flounder. All of this is a choice. Your past can be a teacher, a motivator, an influencer, and part of your successes. But you need to allow it to do that.

It’s important for me to be honest with you from the outset. There are no magic wand solutions to moving forward from your past. It’s not a case of repeating a mantra and your issues are all gone. I wish it were that simple. I believe that unless you deal with your past, your future happiness is compromised. With that in mind, I have developed a four-step approach that will help you navigate your way through this.

Using this process, I will be teaching you how to let go of what’s holding you back. The four steps are:

1. Understanding why you become stuck

2. How you can move forward

3. How this will contribute to a happier life

4. Commitment to making the necessary changes.

Let’s be honest, you won’t want to read another sentence of this book unless there is something for you to take away. I promise there is much for you to take away that will change how you live your life. This book does not just provide understanding. It will provide guidance and insight on how to detach from the stuff that is getting in the way of your life and your happiness. The past is a good place to start.