Читать книгу Meditations for Pain Recovery - Tony Greco - Страница 34

JANUARY 25

COMMITMENT

SPIRITUAL BALANCE

“Being committed requires the consistency and fortitude to do what is required even when we are tired or don’t feel we can.”

Of Character: Building Assets in Recovery

The hidden agenda of every addict is to use. With that in mind, spirituality requires eternal vigilance. Even when I’m doing my best, or during the best of times, I have a thought process that is constantly calculating ways I can find something outside myself to “fix me” quickly. I seek out instant gratification. I fantasize about easier, softer (but ultimately more painful) ways and means of being in the world and dealing with my chronic pain. I must make a commitment to my pain recovery on a regular, sometimes moment-by-moment basis. I must constantly monitor all of the points of balance in my life and at the same time, give myself a break and take it easy on myself. My commitment is not to be perfect. My commitment is to being imperfect, but recovering. Recovery is a process, a journey, and a life of ongoing monitoring, forever discovering ways I interact with the world.

I make a commitment to myself and to my higher power that for this day I will focus on my recovery and not on my pain.