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JANUARY 26

CONTROL

RELATIONSHIPS

“Men are rich only as they give. He who gives great service gets great rewards.”

Elbert Hubbard

Part of active addiction is a belief that I always have to be in control. In my mind, people who were not in control were people who were weak. It was one thing to feel disabled by chronic pain, another thing to be controlled by drugs. My pain has changed the way I view the world. In my worst moments of pain, I realized I had no control, and I felt like a victim. When I made that realization deep in my heart, I became free. I do not feel such a need to control anymore. Ironically, by accepting that I cannot control my pain, I find that I no longer allow it to control me. I focus on helping others whom I once viewed as weak, and help them to do what they can to relinquish control of their pain as I am trying to do. I stop thinking about trying to control my life or my pain— instead I focus on being of service to others. By so doing, I take the power away from my self-centered addiction and self-absorbed pain. I gain a great reward.

I relinquish control of my chronic pain by focusing on something else: helping myself and others through pain recovery. In my darkest moments, I become a light for others.